Joyfully we browse through the designer house catalog, selecting houses that we hope to live in when we grow up. Unaware of the complications of owning a house, we collectively plan and assign rooms to each other. We talked about the placement of pictures, the furniture and whether or not we would have a pool. Everything is make believe and it is the reality that we have accepted since birth. The real world has no meaning to us and the only reality that mattered is ours. Things isn't viewed as collection of parts but as a whole. The intricacies of the whole had no meaning.Our thoughts flew as far as our understanding allow. As far as we know, this is the way life would be as long as we live.
Well that was the reality for me as a child. It was a reality that I wouldn't mind having today. Julie,Glowdyne and I were unaware of our sexuality. It wasn't on our minds and we didn't feel or see it. We all looked at each other as a person and nothing more. Things changed as we grew older and move apart. Our changing bodies tainted our outlook on life and the things that weren't a distraction before now were. I haven't seen or heard from them since we move onto Secondary school. It would be interesting to see how much we have changed since our early school years. The question I keep asking myself even to this day is “Why do we lose our innocence?”. Is the awareness of the part we play in sex th entity that strip us of our innocence? I grow older everyday but my mind still wonders like a child. Probably we are all children with adult layers and some of us may have so much adult layers that we forget the who or what we are.